Deeply upset with my recent activities and behaviors I took to drawing as an outlet. That’s the thing about art, sometimes it can be really great self therapy. I was drinking a lot and I felt like an idiot that no one could stand. I felt like a clown that was so pissed off at the world that he just stabs and stabs himself. Even though he can’t feel no pain he continues to self harm and the pain doesn’t do anything to make him feel alive.. or there.