For myself in the pursuit of this spiritual essence it took all of who I was to become what I didn’t know I’d be. All this spiritual energy in us that lays dormant for the earlier beginnings of our lives. In the symbolism I’m using here, I am releasing that energy from myself. It looks as if it’s a choice, I’m choosing to release this energy. At the time it was less of a choice and more of a process thrust upon me.